I have been struggling to decide on a topic for my second featured blogger post. I had initially thought to share my wedding theme and bridesmaids ideas, but these elements seem much less relevant than they did a month ago (don't worry! I promise that I will have plenty of that sort of thing in the future). I recently hit a sort of turning point in the wedding process at which time -pardon my french- sh*t got real.
I was a tomboy growing up, and I never spent my days dreaming up the perfect wedding. So my wedding inspiration blog was an incredibly liberating experience. I discovered an infatuation with tissue pom poms, feather headpieces and invitation suites. I came to idolize Martha Stewart and her many websites. For three months, I gorged myself on wedding eye candy and gabbed non-stop with my girlfriends. The possibilities seemed limitless and magical.
Since that time, Jeff and I have written two wedding checks: one deposit for the ceremony venue, and one for the reception venue. Now that 11% of our budget is gone, all of the decisions became, for lack of a better phrase, distinctly heavier. Setting the date and the venues means that now the save-the-dates can be finalized, and the invitation can be drafted. But are the colors I picked good enough? Suddenly we have to decide on a menu and start looking at hotel and flight options for out of town guests.
Maybe some women, the kind that have been planning their wedding since before April, have stronger wedding convictions than I, but I just can't help it. It is impossible not to second guess each choice, even the ones I was absolutely convinced about weeks ago. My 45-minute subway rides to and from work are spent agonizing over every detail. Will my wedding colors be tacky? Should I wear a tea-length wedding dress? Is there too much time in between the ceremony and reception? Will a lone cello sound funny? ... ARGH.
I have started carrying a journal everywhere I go, so that when these random questions hit, I can just get them out of my brain. Paging through the journal now, I find it funny how something that seems so important in your head can look pretty silly once it's written down. At the end of the day, I keep reminding myself that the most important things on my wedding day will be that I married my best friend, and that our closest friends and family came to share in that joy with us.
Of course, it wouldn't hurt if the wedding colors were inspiring, or the cellist was a big hit too. (Clearly, I need more help than a journal can provide.)
Are you like me, and are having difficulty with your wedding choices? How are you coping with the stress?
And if you're not like me, do you have any tips on how I can get some cajones and just make the freaking decisions already?
2 opinions:
I am right there with you ;)
I too have sat on the subway on my way home from work in la la land, day dreaming about card boxes and table numbers. I am so indecisive I have two dresses which I am totally in love with! I also changed my wedding colors because one of my BM very politely that the wedding was starting to look like a quincenera (latino sweet sixteen) yikes!
But all in all, I'm glad I have so much time to plan and have the ability to change my mind because, I think that will make everything look that much better and more polished on the BIG DAY.
BTW...I even changed venues and we lost our deposit (whoops guess I jumped the gun there...think that will be my next blog post) Needless to say FH was not happy...but i love my current venue and think things will turn out much better there.
Oh, Michelle. "Get out of my head!" I am almost 40 and I had resigned myself to that of a fabulously happy single woman: The Cool Auntie/Diva Younger Sister who blows in for the weekend and drops off great presents! I used to talk politics and prose, now I am yapping nonstop about table linens, signature drinks, and flowers meanwhile I'm making my friends and FH crazy with my obsessions that it's going to be a disaster because I color blue that's difficult to match! BREATHE!!!
We are 14 months away, but 18 month out we confirmed the photographer and venue and minister. So YES! I understand what you mean by sh*t is real and it's gonna get more so! Keep journaling and posting about it, we'll all listen and obsess right along with you! And I love your attitude...at the end of the day, no matter what colors or whatever else you ultimately choose, you get to marry the love of your life.
Post a Comment